here i am again,sad ,everyday the same,u always in my mind,what if this,what if that,things aren't going to change,can't bring u back.tears again,,,vickie,,i want to be happy again,,i try and try i really do,,this sadness comes over me,seems like it just won't leave me alone....i don't think anyone truly understands me,,,depression is a horrible feeling..i sometimes think why go on like this everyday...no one to really help me..i don't think they know how......u have another grandson,,,how i wish u could be to hold hold him........i miss u so much.....i will write soon,ok..love your sister...