hi sis, another day,,,i'm trying to do better,,they tell me i dwell on things to much,,i guess that's true,,i know i need help coping. vickie,u know i am very thankful for all that i have.i don't take it for granted,,i don't want there sympathy,i know everyone has there own way of dealing with life, some do better than others.they tell me it could be alot worse,yes that's true...i think maybe i should keep my feelings to myself...but i guess a hug and having someone understand is just to much.....that's why i miss u so much,we could talk about everything we never judged each other..going through depression is a horrible thing,,but when they don't understand it's worse...i love and miss u vickie.....i know u are in a wonderful place. no more pain or suffering..everyone say's you wouldn't want her back like that,,,i want u back the way u used to be.......but can't ever happen,,,,,,,,i will write again soon.....