vickie, why did u leave,i keep thinking,,,if u were here things would be normal again not be this way,,,i know i did this all to myself.i don't know if any one will ever understand,,,i don't even understand,it's like a never ending battle with myself.all i know is what happens will happen..people are tired of hearing me,over and over its the same thing,, i understand that,i would not want to listen to me either,but i need help. i have no control over this .don't have anywhere to turn,,that's why i'm writing to u,vickie i think i need to stop talking about how i feel,,,i have to deal with this on my own somehow,,,,u would understand,,,,,well sis i will write soon, love and miss u so much...